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excuse me.

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 03:25:51 GMT

im tired of lifes pressure. im tired of my own pressures. im going to stop worrying. its ok now. life is not one big story of pressure, therefore there should be something else. im tired of holding back. just going around school as this character. anyone understand? anyone? how does it feel to just let go? do what you want to do? or not even be self conscious? i want to be myself. as soon as i find out who that is, that is who i want to be. i want to try everything. experience what i can. someone told me a couple ago, "you jus love falling for girls." haha maybe shes right. but if you dont fall for any, how will you ever know what you might experience with them? even if it all falls apart in the end, something great will come out of it.

[theres beauty in the breakdown.]

what exactly is there to say?

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 03:10:22 GMT

two people were broken last week. a friend of mine. so was i, but that is no concern. felt sorry for him, my friend, but hey... he'll be alright. theres other butter out there. i came to a realization that not everything is what they seem. cliche? who said cliches have no meaning. you think you have someone but it turns out you were, well, nothing more than a friend. o so sad? or blessing in disguise? met another girl. well did not meet persay. in fact ive known her since i was in seventh grade. but never realized how great she was until a couple of months ago. things are catching up to us now, and thats great. she has similar characteristics to another crush i had, but when she does certain things i can tell she likes me. no need to guess. question is do i want it? who knows. i dont. i want her. yes. life takes its turns. la de da. today was alright, any day i come home with nothing to really say is usually a good day. friend told me he started smokin some bobby james. i said good luck. yup thats about right. man with all the shit i deal with i should smoke some bobby james, but im not going to. temporary high. no. so i guess ill stick to my addiction of pursuing girls, its not too bad, just a heart break here and there, sometimes you even think, what the fuck was i thinking. almost like going to the mall to meet someone youve never met and going..... well shes an ugly bitch and.. "what the fuck was i thinking." so its not all bad. sometimes you can look back and say hey...that shit was funny. so im not done. a lot of people thought i was. does that mean i should be done? highschool. drama? who cares. fuck it. who has time to deal with it. should be bip bam boom done, let it go. then you can breathe, stretch and shake. overall, people dont know me. people dont really know anything im about. there are a select few. but most, nah jus dont care. so ill jus walk through my life for the next couple of days.

[nothing exciting. 1,2,and 3]

ok.

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 03:04:38 GMT

whats there to say? anything exciting? well sure, school started tuesday, isnt that great? jus peachy. actually it was not too bad. i have a sarcastic british math teacher, an over perky bio teacher, a happy euro teacher, my choir directors, an english teacher with a dark side, an uptight german teacher, and of course the "im still young and have power" world geography teacher =D. dont get me wrong, most of them are cool, but you can guess how this year might turn out. especially in a bio class full of over jumpy freshmen, but thats cool i guess. it was cool meeting people that i havent seen in a while, o yea, even those ones that i thought were my friends or at least cool acquaintances from last year. funny, because they seem to just ignore me, thats cool. i have first with my big sister as i would call her which really is cool. and you know what else is 'cool' the fact i cant sum up the courage to tell her i like her. and another cool thing, got a call from one of my teachers trying to reinforce her classroom rules upon me as i was waking asking for 'a good year', well if a good year is what she wants, a good year she will receive. only fair correct? so everyone is asking the question how was my first days of school you have an answer, ill sum it up in ....cool

arent surveys a bitch? stole it from nina

Tue, 31 Aug 2004 01:37:30 GMT

|you|
Known as: joe, joejoe, kanye
Age: 15
Living in: dale city
School: hylton
Religion: methodist.(christian)
Hair color: black
Eye color: dark brown
piercings: nope
tattoos: wish.
Style: shit. if i like it, ill wear it

|right now|
what color pants are you wearing?: boxies =X
what song are you listening to?: three evils - coheed and cambria
what taste is in your mouth?: quiznos
how are you?: great

|the last person you...|
Hugged?: eric welch after football practice. "man, this football team needs love!" haha
Kissed?: where?
Talked to on the phone?: dei
Yelled at?: dei but in a joking matter

|do you...|
get motion sickness?: yea. thats why im afraid to drive
have a bad habit?: biting my nails.
get along with your parents?: if i said yes would i be lying?
like to drive?: sort of
drink?: occasionally, but never to the point of drunk

|favorite...|
book: pop goes the weasel - james patterson
non alcoholic drink: mountain dew. pibb extra.
alcoholic drink: dont really have one.
thing to do on the weekend: go out with friends.
Movie: jay and silent bob strike back. haha
Song: i dont know. right now its 2113 - coheed
Store: up against the wall
Relative: um, my three uncles, cant pick a favorite
Sport: football, basketball, ..hurasian jellyfishing...? ok not really
Ice Cream Flavor: cookies and cream
Fruit: strawberries
Food: kimpop
Candy: skittles
Holiday: christmas
day of the Week: wednesday
Time: sunset
Color: blue
Quote: "the biggest trick the devil ever played was convincing everyone he never existed." - "The Usual Suspects"

|have you ever...?|
broken the law: yea, stolen
ran away from home: yea, left for about 4 days
snuck out of the house: yup yup
Cheated on a test: NO, thats the devils work! =X -ahem-
ever gone skinny dipping: no but i have gone nude in my house, is that close enough?
made a prank phone call: haha o man... too many times
skipped school before: nope never had a reason to...i guess im too straightedge..haha
been in a school play: yup yup like in 8th grade
had a song written about you?: yea

|what|
what song makes you cry?: im a man. i dont cry.
what song makes you happy?: um, rock the boat - aaliyah
What do you want to be when you grow up?: producer, lawyer, start my own clothing line
What has been the best day of your life?: shit. when i got a dog? haha
What comes first in your life?: family and friends... should be christ but thats hard as shit

|love|
girlfriend: not yet.
sexuality: straight... im really comfortable with my sexuality
children: a girl. and a boy
current crush: if i werent a pussy id probably write it. thing is she might be reading it. uhm girl i like, if youre reading this i like you? haha
been in love: sadly, yes.
had a hard time getting over someone: yea with the same person i was in love with. but hey gotta move on
been hurt: who the fuck hasnt?
your greatest regret: not being as supportive as i couldve been to that girl.

|random|
your cd player has in it right now: the get up kids - the guilt show
what makes you happy: talking on the phone with friends...usually with nadia =P and going to waldorf, maryland, almost feels like home.
when/what was the last time you cried: ? must i say it again?
last time you got e-mail: today
thing you purchased: new clip for my phone on sat.

|your thoughts on...|
abortion: its wrong. every child has potential to be something
teenage smoking: dont do it!
spice girls: o jesus.. me, brett, isaac, and jack used to all fantasize on which one was our girlfriends. haha mine was ginger ;-)
dreams: confusing? but gotta try and make sense out of them.

it wasnt that hard.

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 16:00:35 GMT

this weekend, i went to waldorf and slept over isaacs all weekend... it was hilarious. it got even funnier when brett and jack came. o man. jack must stay on manner mode until we say. but. moving on, after church at my moms on sunday, i came home at around 330. christina called me asking to come over and watch the vma's with her. i thought about it and said why not? so i end up having to ride my bike there because my father wasnt willing to give me a ride, which isnt that big of a deal. i mean, he made me and randy go get our own mcdonalds at midnight on our bikes so its all good. we watched the vmas together. it was actually, a surprisingly good VMAs, i think my favorite parts had to be when chaka came out during my anthem, and the stevie, alicia, and lenny kravitz joint. christina and i had a good time together just hanging out. her sisters were a little annoying but .. o well. theyre kids. i was kinda proud that me and christina could just chill as friends without having any sexual tension or good stuff. SO i think we can actually be good friends. came home at around midnight, on my bike of course, and jus chilled around and fell asleep during some show after the brak show. [adult swim] heh

[good afternoon]

edit:] now i can finally .honestly. try to get with that girl without feeling something else. i was kinda already on that road, but whatever

it will happen.

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 19:08:26 GMT

(i should hurry up and tell her. but im afraid of rejection.)
been busy with football lately... my schedule for the past weeks have been..
wake up
football
come home
sleep/go play basketball
eat dinner
sleep again

edit:/ yea.. forgot one thing. talk to nadia =D

another memory

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 12:32:54 GMT

summer school ended monday. so much happened. from drama, to crushes and other windles for that matter. it felt like kindergarten all over again. i met some new people. made some new friends. fought with some old ones. and forgot about some. i learned a lot. i learned about myself, and how much growing i have to do. to stop relying on something that isnt worth relying on. you know? the simple things we should all know i had to relearn. i missed some oppurtunities, but o well. you live and you learn right? i got pics ill post them sometime later, because i dont know how to do it.
right now im jus looking forward to the football season. hoping i make jv.

[im yours, just tell me]

yup

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 17:45:36 GMT

i think way too much...
sometimes you jus gotta let things roll

how will i get through this storm..

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 02:33:02 GMT

nothing much has happened since the last entry, hence the lack of updates. i spent the night at randys friday because i didnt want to be in my house when my moms company was there. we chilled around and went to sleep at around 345. woke up and watched USA stomp on puerto rico in preliminary rounds before the olympic basketball circuit. the dream team isnt as bad as i thought it would be.

i have been thinking a lot lately about what is right in my choice of friends, and what is wrong.. should i be friends with a certain someone? i already agreed to it. but a lot of times i am thinking more of this friend then i should. is the only way to sever the tie is to forget any ties we had at all and leave something that can cause hurt? or cherish it and live through what could be something worthwhile? we agreed to talk later on this weekend about it... possibly tomorrow. i might go see the village because i couldnt on friday.. so ill probably extend the invitation to this person. and yea.. you can come too randy.

im thinking of writing a book. i dont know of what, or why. it jus seems like something i feel like doing... whether the book is 10 ... or 1000 pages. whatever it is .. i feel like writing it.

Sun, 25 Jul 2004 01:59:40 GMT

ok... it seems as though i should update. randy came over stayed the night for two days. first day, we went to waterworks and balled, erin came down. it was cool seein her. headed back to memas and bsed a bit. then we came back to my house, played some video games, and the usual. i went to summer school while randy stayed home. by the time i came back at around 130, he was still sleeping. so he got up, and we balled in the rain.. got soaked and ran home with only shorts on. stayed the night again... all the same things happened... had kimpop, randys favorite dinner haha. then we saw anchorman .. my second time and still funny as shit.

saturday came about.... promised my mom id cut the grass... so that i did. i woke up at around 930 and headed into the backyard. got done cutting the forest at around 1030. after i got out of my shower.. to my surprise, isaac was at my house.. brother dropped him off... well about an hour later after talking with my half, isaacs brother, simon, dropped us off at her house. we hung out a bit at her house. it was great seeing her. then we took a lil walk to sams... she was unready.. jus woke up.. haha so we went back to chelles and came back. waited about an hour for her ass to get ready! GAHWD! had some fun times in sams house.. haha.. then we walked back to chelles. "FAG?!?! IM SO UNFAG ITS NOT FUNNY. WHEN I SEE A FAG CAR ILL FUCKIN BUST IT OPEN! GOD IM SO UNFAG!" haha. we went into the basement and watched most of clockwork orange... wierd but interesting movie. reminded of this porn haha =X anyway... we chilled around. it was also great seeing my rusty again... i missed them so much. god damn.. sam brought this chai shit back, that shit was so good...sigh.. "KNOIMEAN" haha good times. hopefully we can all chill again...soon. sam left early and we left a couple hours later. isaac couldnt stay the night cause he was grounded. and now im here. today was a great day.

(cuttin a lot of what went down cause theres jus too much to write about haha)

[sleep tight]

reminds me that it's not so bad...

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 22:45:15 GMT

lets see.... summer school was well... interesting as usual. i swear i learn somethin new everyday. jus not about drivers ed .. im gonna crash one day cuz i dont pay attention, but who cares LIVE LIFE..

two days ago.. made plans to go to the movies with jombo, nia, amy, and their friends to see anchorman.. people behold, my mother let me go.. amazing. so yesterday we all go to see this wonderful movie. me and jombo didnt get to sit next to the others cuz we came a little late, but ya know, we sat relatively close. for all of you who hated anchorman.. we will have to agree to disagree, movie was great.

spent the nite at jombos. didnt do much, jus watched south park and played millipede on this game shit. today, we did the same, but went to 7-11 .. i got the usual, 3 cookies and a box of powder donuts that i never am able to finish, and a mountain dew. then we both laughed continually at the "I Love The 90's" marathon. wow.. interesting weekend was it not? and now im home..

[good day]

so much better than you know

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 20:52:49 GMT

its been a while i suppose... well lets get down to business... NO EMONESS .. quick. simple.. found out i still love christina.. told her and now we have an understanding of the tension between us.. we hope to be good friends one day.. AND no we arent getting back together..
everything is better now that i got that off my chest... i feel free.. course there is the aftermath but you gotta work thru it.. man ive been bored lately .. randys all in new orleans and shit ... i miss you sexy baby. ;-) haha anyway..that was pretty gay... moving on... not sure what im doin this week .. hopefully ill find somethin..

[later]

sleep tight..

Tue, 06 Jul 2004 00:36:43 GMT

there was a dream i had last night.. i dont know what to think.. i guess ill jus explain it..

two lovers contemplated whether their love was real... they told each other things, put trust in each other, but never did they purposely hurt one another.. but one lover didnt know he was hurting the other.. a long time went by .. and they fell apart. the boy went on in search of answers, but none were found, he decided life was his tool to understanding himself. more time went by and he spoke with the girl again. they talked about life and how things were going. they started to talk more than usual .. and started to become more than just acquaintances again.. after all they still had something for each other, but was it love or regret? he didnt care to find out. he gave up a long time ago. they couldnt stare and gaze at each other as they used to do... afraid they might fall in love again.. as they took a ride home they got a little closer again.. she, for the first time, stared at him... tried her best to look in his soul. she realized something. he looked back .. having the same realization as her.. the ride came to a stop.. they looked at each other again.. and kissed three times.. and the girl smiled and walked away... the boy did not bother to chase her..

thats where i woke up.. i dont get it..... i have no clue what its about..what are dreams there for? to confuse people? or help people realize a truth.. its eating away at me..

everything

Fri, 02 Jul 2004 20:11:46 GMT

[it was a long good night last night.... i faded asleep thinking constantly of life .. who to trust.. who to care for.. they say you can have all the friends in the world.. but you would be lucky to have one who actually knows you.. i know who those people are... but i dont know who doesnt know me.. who is it i wanna see when things are down? i dont even know.. i find myself debating whether the feelings i have for people is right.. forgetting the choice i have to forget.. i cant.. do i ever learn? yes.. this time i have.. its hard.. lifes hard.. arguing with your parents at 7am until 10am is hard.. every bit takes a toll. now im grounded... thinking why cant i keep my mouth shut? when will i learn that?]
[she comes to me with regrets.. but hides them so... i can tell. i know her better than that.. i know her better than she probably knows me.. we're on the playground playing who has cooties again... going back.. let it go.. but theres the little bit as small as a pinky toe telling me.. patience .. and everything will work out.. but i dont want it to work out]
[you find your heart in the oddest of places.. i found mine last night.. thank you my other half.. things were put back in perspective.. the choices i make affects everyone.. and yet im not the center of the universe.. we make choices that are selfish.. ill fix that too..]
[im a different person then i was weeks ago.. wiser.. yet still learning. i thought about whats ahead and looked deep to find why..why i sat there thinking way too much.. why am i looking for answers that cant be answered?]
[i like myself.. we all have our faults.. i choose to accept them and look at the better parts that make me ..me. i am who i am.. leave it be. love you.. love yourself.. love what you are and can be..]
[o yea... the girl i took some shots with ... i like you .. wasnt that blunt? haha maybe ill have the courage to tell you one day..]
you probably have stop reading ... i know.. but this isnt for you..but for me.. a collection of my thought and what i have dealt within the past hour.. think what you want..

[narrative]://end

Wed, 30 Jun 2004 01:38:09 GMT

so now what?

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIA!!!

... im not sure what to say.. you know things are sort of awkward at summer school.. the whole.. well yea.. anywho.. things are okay.. i mean we're friends ... but i dunno.. its like everyone can make fun of her except me.. if i do it ..she gets irritated and angry, jus cuz.. well its me. i mean i joke sometimes and we actually carry on good conversations i guess... but. what do you say to a woman who broke your heart? its jus so complicated, i want things to jus be plain and simple.. ive got my life ..shes got hers.. ive got other girls to, ya know.. make casual conversations.. but i cant really do that with this thing jus lingering in my head.. maybe ill jus sleep on it.. see what i can do.

[overboard]

Mon, 28 Jun 2004 17:43:44 GMT

frequencies are clear

yesterday> went to nates.. chilled wit him and randy.. got in trouble with my dad cuz he was quite infuriated when he called me at around 10:30 asking when id be home.. I was gonna call him in 15 min.. but o well .. so he was like im not your taxi cab.. and whatnot.. i mean he never lashed out like that before ... or even show anger... sigh. now i might be grounded .. woop de doo

yea.. had my first day of summer school.....o jesus.. its gonna be a looong ass summer.. it kinda makes me glad i got people like dei, karen, and christina there to talk to.. and no.. it doesnt feel wierd being around my ex anymore.. its kind of cool. well lets see... PE in summer school is one 5 hour long period of ...how you say? nothing.. we start drivers ED tomorrow .. WOW ..

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 19:50:50 GMT

survey...stolen from ju..who stole it from phil
<3 ju haha

Thirteen random things you like (no order):
1. clothes
2. gatorade
3. music
4. skateboard
5. girls
6. my digital camera
7. up against the wall
8. dairy queen blizzards
9. friends
10. communication devices
11. movies
12. waldorf
13. optimism..gotta agree with ju on this one

Twelve movies:
1. jay and silent bob strike back
2. underworld
3. the usual suspects
4. juwanna man
5. starsky and hutch
6. austin powers
7. the lord of rings trilogy
9. bringin down the house
10. blair thumb
11. the recruit
12. phonebooth

Eleven good bands/artists:
1. coheed and cambria
2. talib kweli
3. kanye west
4. the getup kids
5. mos def
6. jay z
7. n.e.r.d
8. common sense
9. tahjir
10. raphael saadiq
11. outkast

Ten things about you ... physically:
1. close cut
2. 5'6"
3. brown eyes
4. broad
5. freckles
6. kind of pointy ears
7. birth mark on my left arm
8. birth mark on my left leg
9.
10.

Nine good friends:(no order..)
1. bre
2. randy
3. jombo
4. nate
5. sarah
6. carin
7. brett
8. maddie
9. rusty, and other half

Eight Favorite Foods/Drinks:
1. mountain dew
2. pibb extra
3. papa johns
4. kim pop
5. sam gyuk sal (korean..yall dont know bout that)
6. tacos
7. McChicken sandwich
8. dnl

Seven things you wear daily:
1. boxers
2. socks
3. somethin round my wrist
4. pants
5. cell
6. shirt
7. ..love?

Six things that annoy you:
1. girls (still love em)
2. parentals rules
3. authority
4. security guards
5. people who think they are so cool
6. running out of gatorade

Five things you touch everyday:
1. computer
2. playstation 2 controller
3. cell
4. cd player
5. my dick.. gotta agree with jus once again..

Four shows you watch:
1. 106 $ park
2. punk'd
3. real world
4. ..did watch the OC..

Two people on lj that you have kissed
1. wtf?
2. questions gay

One person you could spend the rest of your life with
1. jesus

Thu, 24 Jun 2004 16:22:48 GMT

nothing too exciting

well.... randy left my house two days ago .. it was fun .. but some bullshit happen, he got his bike stolen at my house.. so i promised to match half of the price of a new bike that he would buy. yea.. so after that .. he went home.. then to the doctors.. and found out his wrist was dislocated.. jus was not a good day for him.. next day... my friend brett came over after my moms friends open house.. it was boring .. so me and brett bullshitted around the house. came home and did well nothin... after the rain passed we skated at mcauliffe.. these girls came by and i yelled at them .."ever have your asshole licked by a man on a skateboard!?" then we came back home and did more of...nothing.. yup thats my day.. i was gonna call the girl i like and pussied out again.. damn it

out

Wed, 23 Jun 2004 04:19:45 GMT

(X) I have drank.<
(X) I have smoked pot.
(X) I have kissed a member of the opposite sex.
(_) I have kissed a member of the same sex. HELL NO
(_) I have crashed a friend's car.
(_) I have been to Japan.
(X) I have ridden in a taxi.
(_) I have had anal sex. given? or received? =X
(X) I have been in love.
(_) I have had sex in public.
(X) I have been dumped.
(X) I have shoplifted.
(_) I have been fired.
(X) I have been in a fist fight.
(_) I have had a three-some
(_) I've been caught masturbating.
(X) I have peed on myself.
(_) I had sex with a member of the same sex.
(_) I have been arrested.
(_) I made out with a stranger.
(_) I stole something from my job.
(_) I celebrated new years in Time Square.
(_) I went on a blind date.
(X) I have lied to a friend.
(X) I had a crush on a teacher. what... she had a fat ass
(_) I have celebrated mardi gras in New Orleans.
(X) I have skipped school.
(_) I have slept with a co-worker.

FIRSTS.
First best friend: hannah...in nebraska
First car: yea..ok
First date: uh...no?
First real kiss: 8th grade with christina...no regrets
First break-up: in 6th grade with sasha but shes like my sis now
First screen name: Firedrake222... yea i remember, so what? fuck you
First self purchased album: third eye blind bitch! HELL YEA
First funeral: my grandmother =(
First pets: buster and bear my babies
First piercing/tattoo: none.. tryin to get a tat
First credit card: PSSH!! riiiiiiiight
First true love: christina.. as all would probably guess
First enemy: brett...haha
First musician you remember hearing in your house: my mom...?

LASTS.
Last cigarette: i would never... fuck that
Last car ride: 5 hours ago back to my house
Last kiss: like lip lock? shit.. like 2 months.. on cheek earlier today
Last movie seen: jay and silent bob strike back BITCHES!
Last beverage drank: gatorade, fuel for the body
Last food consumed: kimpop
Last crush: she might be reading this =X
Last phone call: chyna
Last time showered: last night
Last shoes worn: air forces
Last item bought: milkshake at mckie ds, vanilla.. cuz i like it white
Last annoyance: mom.. buggin my ass to move my bookbag downstairs
Last disappointment: this evening...randy got his bike stolen =/
Last time wanting to die: shiiiiiit never.. i love myself too much
Last shirt worn: point zero, with the tite multicolored stripe
Last song you sang: dont take your love away - avant
What is in your cd player?: coheed and cambria
What color socks are you wearing?: i dont wear socks, i prefer freedom
What Color of underwear are you wearing?: blue thong ;-)
What's under your bed?: scooter, knex, legos, football, shoes, action figures, gijoe, stuffed animals, wrestling toys, checkers, dick rag..(jus joshin bout the last one -cough-)
What time did you wake up today?: 1030.. hah woke randys ass up cuz i was bored

FUTURE
Where do you want to go?: jamaica or -cough- sexual paradise..-cough-
What is your career going to be?: lawyer, graphic designer, *producer
Where are you going to live?: OC!!.......not really.. maybe florida
How many kids do you want? 2 or 3 cause you know.. i had no siblings and i want my children to have someone other than their parents to rely on

Tue, 22 Jun 2004 02:59:53 GMT

boredom

yesterday: ...randy and i went to waterworks and balled... saw kofi... thats bout it...

today: we went touring around dale shitty.. as we would call it.. Tour De Dale City... we rode our bikes around at least half of it.. first, we went to mcdonalds.. then i called up sasha, to see if she was still on for today, but nope got grounded =(.. so I decided HEY lets go to jims.. so we round all the way down lindendale to jims.. turns out his ass is doing community service at Pizza Hut settin up fireworks for chorus... who wouldve thought? anyway... then we decided... hey lets go to GIANT, get some candy, and i can apply for a job..turns out.. i cant cuz im only 15.. doesnt that suck dick? well we decided to go to seans.. chilled there a bit.. it was cool, he let us spray down with axe cuz we werent smellin too shnazzy.. we played some video games, had some laughs, you know.. then we went to carins and/or erins and i talked to erins mom a bit... then we rode on home. i might sneak out tonite to meet a certain someone.. but yea, who knows.. o well

[out]

Sun, 20 Jun 2004 02:18:44 GMT

funky freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh

well i deleted the old entries jus to let everyone know im back! and ill actually update...sorry to those who actually read my diaries, my apologies... um further news... nothing really... schools out -cool look- . this summer might be aight... im actually sort of busy.. im gonna have summer school.. WHAT FUN!... nadia told me she was goin so thats cool... then im gonna take bass lessons, get a job, weight training for wrestling.. yup not too shabby. randy stayed over last nite.. and he'll prolly stay tonite and tomorrow nite.. um.. thats bout it. yesterday, me and randy went down to shannons.. chilled there for a bit and then went to waterworks and balled.. randy went to work and around 3 today so i went up to my dawg jim's house and chilled there..did some madden.. he beat me that bastard.. yup now im here

yup.. there is another girl im crushin on.. i jus dont know what to expect tho.. she could jus be messin with me, or actually like me.. its hard to tell.. i dunno... im a jus let things ride, and see how they work out..should i tell her i like her? or jus keep on the shhsh? comment me, let me know what you think.

[out]